HED3023: Week 2- “Principles”.

In this week 2, many things has opened my eyes to be an educators. Principles? Life principles? Students principles? Teacher principles? Yes who ever we are we should have principles to makes sure we are in the right track and achieve our hopes and dreams in future .  What can I see in this week, it is not easy to be a teacher, so many things should be awared. Teacher is a very kind jobs yet it is also not easy to be one of them, even if we’re good in education doesn’t mean that we good in handle student problems. Strong? Yes that is the most important things to have. Student are many so problems will be much . Handle the good one’s student is easy yet not for the rest that is not good at all. Problems will occurs at anytime but are we ready to faces all this ? do we already know the best way to make this not happened? As human being we can’t get rid this kind of problems because “Problems is a friend”. If we don’t have problems then how can we be a better person someday? So here what can I see is teacher should always plays the good roles in the way how to make them remind themself and not doing bad thing outsides. Even if we try to stop them not confirm that they will listen but at least we do and we should always say a good word and give an advice or if we noticed that the student got a problems we call their name and ask them to meet us at free time so that we can know what is really happens and try to be close and talk in a good way. To be a teacher not only we share our knowledge but we can also act more and be concern in student problem so that the problems that student face not be affected to their studies. That’s all . Thank you . 

HED3032:WEEK 1- “Be a better teacher to have a brighter students”

After a long semester break about 2months now here again my class is started in this first week for a new semester which is semester 3. First of all, I’ve heard so many comments from the seniors said that this semester will be tough than previous semester because there are a few teaching subject as preparation for being a future English teacher Insya-Allah. This first week I’ve learnt so many things that related to be a teacher and the characteristics that I should have to be an English teacher soon. In my opinion , to be a teacher is not that easy because we should prepared ourself first and there are so many consequences that we will face from our students. Every student have their own abilities and different attitude and what should we do is to make sure and know how to handle students in a better ways. This first week of semester 3, what can I see is some of the lectures sometimes using a wrong way to handle students and their have different style on how to handle the students. We as an educators should not take it easy on this matters, we should know how to handle the students in different ages. As an adult the way to teach them is different from primary and secondary school students. Rules? yes that is one of the point that I want to touch here, in my opinion and of course all of the colleagues student will think in same way as I do, they hates rules and sometimes they like to break the rules. We as an educators should aware of this kind of problems because in this level of ages they don’t really listen an advice from the lectures because they think what they do Is right and nothing goes wrong.  In my opinion is I don’t think that if we too strict in rules can make students better because now a days even the student who’s not follow the rules also can scored well and do well in their studies so that what we can see is even the students not follow the rules still they can be a good in academic but for sure they will lack of dicipline. They tend to do that because they know after this they can’t be freely on wearing what they like because when we started to work we should really be dicipline no matter how so in college is the best and the last time for them to wear anythings that they like infact actually the rules are to be followed not to be break. Some of the students will think that rules and dicipline in college should be followed so that we already practiced and there will be no problems if sooner or later they work because of this rules practiced. Secondly , we as a teacher should let our student know earlier if we’re not be able to attend the class because sometimes the student already waiting so long for next class and suddenly the class is cancelled at last minutes, what do u feel if you’re in that situations? Maybe they take about 4 hours to attend a next class but because of the house is not nearby the college so they have to wait at college just for waiting the next class. I’ve remind myself not to do this to my students and should let my students know more earlier so that they can go back and not just waiting the class that at last the class is cancel . My last point of view in this whole first week is the teacher or lectures should plays the important rules so that the student will be able to do the same thing in future, we should not be bias to the student because we don’t really know each others more close and we don’t know what they have been through in the time being. Sometimes when the students acts different from others then lectures will comments and not using proper way to advice the students.”Be a better teacher to have a brighter students”. Thank you . 

Teman baru :)

teman baru ? okey kali ni aku nk crite ttng seorng teman yg bru dlm idup aku.. sbnanye kiteorng kenal dah lme dkat 4 tahun tp bru kebelakangan ni je dpt jumpa n lepak sme2 kan ? hihi . disaat aku keseorngan kau tepat hadir dlm idup aku..tah la , walaupun ak tahu spe diri aku n aku tahu kau pon knl spe aku kan? yela kan aku tahu mmbe2 kau xbrpe suke ngan aku tp kau xkesah sume tu , kau ckp "biarlah aku nak kwan ng spe pon , aku yg nk berkwn bukannye downg". okey aku lega bile kau ckp cmtu and act ak xsangka yg kau akn ckp cmtu, yela msing2 xkenal hati budi ag kan kan ? hmm aku taktahu knp aku suke lepak ng kaw, ak senang ble lepak ng kaw. tp aku tahu mulut orng berkata n mest anggap aku mcm2 kan ? tp aku xkesa la ape downg nk ckp, aku tahu ape aku buat n aku adalah aku. mngkin dowg akn pk bkn2 knp ak mmbe ng kaw tp biarkan mulot org berkata apa aku hanya mmpu tersenyum and mengendahkan ape orng nk ckpp..bg aku kaw sweet talker tu yg buat ak cm tah la happy doh lpk ng kau...aku suke tgok ko membibil sorng2 and aku kdng2 tergelak n tersenyum sinis ,smpai kau pelik ng aku kan ? hahaha xde ape pon sbnanye hehehe... tp satu je aku xsuke ng kau, kalau tidur xingt dunia .. aku kol n msej berkali2 xde pon berjwb .. tp kau pndai amek hati aku, kau pujuk aku, haha kelakar doh ble aku igt blikkk hahahaha tp xpela aku tahu kau penat kan , yela kau msih stdy ag kan. bz ng stdy kau .. lg satu , aku ng kau byk persamaan , ape yg kau lalui sme dgn ape yg aku lalaui tp mngkin ad skit je perbezaan ... hmm kau byk bg ak smngt n nasihat , okey aku dnga semua tu and aku xkn sia2 kan ape yg kaw ckp... tp mngkin blom tbe msenye lg kowd utk aku buat sume tu n jd ape yg hakikatnye ak kena jadi... jgn risau , aku akn berubah wehh , aku dgr nsihat n kata2 kau tu, thanks tawww .. hmm act aku xtahu nk ckp ape ag sbb mngkin br kenal hati msing2 kann xpelah mayb bile dah lme2 kenal kite tahu lah hati msing2 , prngai msing2 . mngkin skrng semua nye baik2 je tp esok lusa spe tahu kan? xpelah aku doakkan agar persahabtan kite akn terus kekal smpai bile2... and lg stu aku nk ckp aku bukannye sme cm mmbe2 kau tu sume .. jgn igt semua orng sme n aku ni lain dr ape yg mmbe2 kau penah buat kat kau okey ? igt tuu .. smpai sini jelah mls nk taip bnyk2 , ape2 pon thanks sbb jd mmbe aku n aku happy mmbe ng kaw . thanks amek n anta aku blik sllu..heee :)

Menyendiri lagi :'(

Okey aku pon xthu knp skrng hdup ak xcam dlu , yg slalu kehulu kehilir berjalan tanpa henti .. aku xthu knp semua org yang sllu ade ng aku kini pergi meninggalkan aku, ape slah aku pon aku xthu , if aku ade wt slah silap ke sorry ah ak minx maaf kayy . tp serious aku xleh hdup sendiri tanpa teman2 disisi aku . tp aku paham kowng pon ade life msing2 , mgkin kowng bz ke kan xpelah aku paham. msing2 dah start keje n stdy skrng .. aku pon xthu aku nk ckp ape dah tp ape yg aku nk ckp kt sni aku betul2 xleh hdup tanpa teman2 aku .. hmm :'( i need my life as before backkk so badly :'(

I MISS YOU SYAFIQ :'(

4 MONTHS 10 DAYS WITH U UNTIL TODAY :'(

Bie , hmmm im speecless bieee .. smpai harini hbgan kite msih tergantung biee .. hmm aku xtahu nk ckp pe oh bie .. aku xtahu lah kaw msih ingat kat aku ke x lagii , tapi aku harap walaupun kaw da xsyg aku , aku ttp dlm hati kau , biarpun skit janjy ade aku dlm hati kaw lg bieee ., xsusah kan.. aku harap sgt ... First time aku nmpak kau , aku xde lngsong perasaan kat kau and kite just kwn je .. mse tuh kau ngah happy2 ng sorng dari bestie aku yg plng aku syg skli ... So aku xnk la gngu kan hbgan kowng and sumpah xde niat lngsong nk amek kau dr mmbe baik aku sndiri .. selang dlm seminggu dr tu .. kau IM aku .. im just likeee errrr, but ape slhnye kan kau tegur aku kan kan bie ? hmm aku just lyn kau mcm biase je mcm mmbe2 aku yg lain. mse tu kau ckp kau lapar then aku pun ckp ahh g ah mkn kan, then kau ajak aku kelua ngan kaw g mkn .. aku ckp la xnk walaupun aku thu kite mmbe je but aku msih pk mmbe ksygn aku tu .. nnty dye pk aku ape plak kan ... but kau ckp xpe mmbe2 aku yg lain pun penah je kelua ngn kau perg mkn kan bie ? so aku pun mcm okey je la kan , kelua ng kaw n g mkn2 kat NZ .. first kite met berdua .. hmm msih tu kite msih kekok lg kan nk berborak pe semua kan kan ? but ak happy sgt kelua ng kau mlm tu walaupun dah pkol bpe pg .. kite lepak lme sgt kan kan ? pastu kite g breakfast kt mamak WMaju .. aku ingt lagiii . that was such a great day ever in my life ! :'( but tu sume hnyelah kenangan je kan ? hmm xpela aku akn ttp ingt kau dlm hati aku ... Lps je harituh kite hari2 kua and xpernah skli pun kite xkua sme2 kan.. setiap kali kite kua mest dkt nk 10 jamm . dkt nk dua bulan kite hari2 kua sme kan ? kite sllu pergy bkit ampang lpk2 sne OMG sgt best okeyy bieee .. mse tu aku dlm kesediha and kau dtng dlm idup aku , kau happy ka aku , aku bahagia sngt tahuu ,.. bg aku kau lain sgt dr laki yg pnah ak kenal... kaw lain sgt ! sbb tu aku suke kat kaw..kalau aku ad mslah kau sllu ad ng aku and xpenah bg alasan walau stu pon, kau okey je .. walaupun lewat pagi pon kau sgop amek aku kan ? hmm walaupun kau penat , walaupun kau br bgun tdur , kaw sngop amek aku ... aku hargai sgt pengorbanan kau ...pastu mse bru2 kite kenal dlu aku stay umah kaw dkt nak dua bulan kan ? aku jrng dah lepak ng spe2 ponn . bestie2 aku , aku jrng lepak dah ng downg... orng len ajak ak kua lepak aku xk sbb aku nk kau sllu ad ng aku, bg aku ade kau disisi aku sgt bahagia skli ... okey aku xnafikan aku msih cntct ng ex2 aku and menggatal ng orng lenn.. tp kaw xkesa and kau pendam sume tuu aku tahu ,.. smpai satu tahap kaw mrah gle ng aku, kau jujur ng aku and kau ckp aku curang ng kaw and aku ade orng lennn .. aku jnjy ng kaw aku xkn buat cmtu ag kan kan ? 2 kali jnjy aku xtepatiii .. tp kaw still okey ng aku , kaw sbr ng prngai aku .. smpai jnjy ketiga ,.. aku bertekad xkn dah lyn orng lebih2 and yess aku akui aku dah berubah dah dr saat tuuu ...aku betul2 berubah mcm2 bieee ... walaupu susah utk aku lupekan prngai2 aku dlu yg jahat tp sebbkan kau aku berubah jgkk. sbb aku xnk khilangan kaw bieee .. hmm hari2 kite jalani hdup sme2 kan ? tdur je nmpak muke kaw.. bgu je muke kaw lagi... hari2 ng kawww . kite ni dah mcm suami isteri plak kan always bersme. hehe sweet sgt and kdg2 ite suke gurau2 n gaduh2 kan ? aku rndu saat tuu and tiap mlm mse ak tdur kau ckp BABY GUDNYTE~ aww bgn suare kau tuu perghh sweet syg ,, hm tp tu knangan je utk aku biee :'( kat rumah kaw kite sllu sgt kan tgok movie sme2 ? perghh aku xbosan lgsong bile ade ng kaw.. hehe tp kaw nye prgai tgok skejap je terus tdur kan kan ? hhehe . kaw sllu pngil aku BOBOI kan ? aww sweetnyeee lahhh ... boboi sgt ! wekkk .. hehe hmmm tp tu sume hnyeterpahat dlm memori terindah aku je bie ... dlu kau sggup ponteng kelas kau smate2 nk bersme aku kan ? aku pakse gak kaw g kelas tp kaw bg alasan , kau ckp xde kelas la, kelas batal la pdhal tak pon kan ? hehe pndai kaw menipu aku kan kan ? hmm ... dlm 2 bulan bersme kaw tiap2 hri kt dlm rumah tu kite sllu sgt gaduh2 .. aku lah yg bnyk touching ng kaw pon kan ? walupun act kau xbyk pon silap... aku yg byk buat slah ng kawww ... kaw snggup xlepak ng mmbe2 kau sbb aku , smpai mbe2 kau ckp kaw lupe downg ahh bagai kan ? hmm semate2 nk ade ng akuuu ... mase bufday aku plak kaw smbut bufday aku kire nk buat suprise la kan tp aku tahu bie kaw nk celeb bufday aku... hahaha tp aku wat2 xtahu je taww buat cm xde pe hehehe ... sweet ohh. kaw plan bufday aku ng bestie2 aku sume kann ? hmmmm

Ni besday cake yg kau bg kat aku and kau bg hadiah jam tangan kaw tuu kat aku.. aku msih pkai lg and aku xkan hilangkan .. aku ak jge seperti aku jge diri aku sndiri sbb tu hadiah dr bie aku yg plng aku syg skli .. hmmmm .....

Satu hari tuu kaw ade ckp kau nk g JB kan nk sttle kn psal kete baru kau .. aku cm sdih je kau nk blik sne,. lepas ni xde la aku nk tgok muke kaw lg kan... bgun2 je nmpak muke kaw kan? aku xleh bieee.. aku nk nages je time tu tp aku tahan jeeee hmmm . but mse kaw nk gerak sne aku ckp aku nk ikot tp kaw cm xnk bg je aku ikot , kau bg aku bnyk alasan aku sdih sgtt . ak plik and aku cm xsedap hatiii .. kau ckp kau blik kejap je kan ? dlm seminggu kan kan ? top aku xleh laa xde ng kawww. aku gerak jugak JB mlm tu semate2 nk jmpe kaw kan kan ? kaw amek aku time aku smpai kat JB tuuu ... pastu ak stay umah mmbe aku ,... tp start je hrituh aku nmpk kau berubah sgt .. aku dtng sne igt dpt la jmpe kaw sllu tp kaw bnyk bg aku alasan ... dkat smnggu kt sne aku tggu kau tp aku jmpe kaw 3 kali je.. tp setiap kli jmpe kdng2 xsmpai sejam ponn ? mne pergy mse2 dlm 10 jam yg dlu kau sllu ade utk aku time first2 kenal ? kaw ckp kau kt sne bz xdpt nk jmpe sgt kan kan ? kaw ckp bnyk mende kaw nk sttlekan ? tp xkn la xde lngsong mse untuk aku kan? xkn la 24 jam kau bz je.. sumpah weh aku sdih sgt ... aku g sne smate2 nk jmpe kaw tahu x? nk jmpe kaw ... tp kaw buat aku cm xde je.. dlu kau xbyk bg alasan tp bile je kau kt Jb sume dah lain. kaw byk bg alasan n kaw byk snggt skitkan hati akuuu doh. setiap hari aku menangis dohh . aku igt kaw je tp kaw xde mse dah nk kua ng akuuu, aku smpai setiap2 pg bgun and jalan2 stu BBU tu tok cre kete kaw n cri kaw.. penat doh aku jalan kaki , dah la tengah2 panasss , setiap hari okey aku cri kaw kt sne, yela mne xnye aku bgang la kaw off phone, kau xrep text aku dah, kol pon xangkat sume .. aku risau and aku mnghrapkan aku nmpak sesuatu yg akn menjelaskan sesuatu knp kaw berubah smpai cmtuh skli biee. mule2 kau ckp semnggu je kaw kt sne .. pastu kau ckp lak , kena stay lg stu mnggu kan smpai la skrng bie... dah dkt 2 bulan kau ttp xblik2 sni bieee. kaw ckp kau syg aku ?? knp aku wt aku cmni bie ? kaw tahu sumpah doh bie hari2 aku mmpi kaw ,. xpenah skli po ak xmimpi kaw. dkt 2 bulan setiap hari aku mmpi kaw dohh! sumpah ni betul xtipu kayy . hmmm .. tah la bie. sejak dr tu aku down sgt2 .. walaupun aku ade exam yg aku akn tempuh tp aku xbljr pon walaupun kau ckp kat aku jnjy ng kaw utk bljr walaupun aku xde ng kaww. ak dah try tp xleh.. aku nk ade ng kaw bru aku leh blajar bieee .. mood aku bljr xde dahhh . aku igt kaw akn bg smgat kat aku tok aku jalani exam tu tp tak ponn. kau xde ng aku bie aku xleh doh nk bljr smpai la saat exam tu pon act aku xbljr ponnn bieee .. pkira aku hnye kat kau jeeee aku hrp sngt kaw ad ng aku saat tu tp xde ponnn,. dlu kaw sllu ade and bg ak smngat tp sjak kau blik JB kau dah xcam dlu... kaw ebrubah sgt2 bieee. aku sllu ckp kat kau lau ko xsyg kat aku ckp je tp kaw ckp syg ... kau ckp kau xsnggup nk aku blah dr kawww ... tp kenape kau buat aku kecewa kalau kau syg aku ? knp biee? kau wt aku terseksa dohh serioussss. hmmm kalau kau xsyg aku jgn lah ckp kaw syg aku lggg . kaw sllu ckp aku ad orng lain kan ... tah2 kau yg ade orng lain mse kt sne... tp aku msih pk lg yg kau syg kan aku soh aku buang perasaan aku yg kaw ade orng lainnn .. aku pcyekan diri aku yg kau ade aku sorng jeee ... kau sllu ckp aku jgn pk bkn2 .. kau xde orng lain kaw hnye ade aku jeee xpela aku sbr jeeee ohh .. smpai stu saat aku dah penat tggu kaw kt sneeee aku blik KL sorng2 ohh .. ak igt mse kt perhentian bus tu kau ade la utk temani aku wat terakhir kali tp kaw xde bieee.. kau xde.. aku igt kau nk jmpe aku dohhh sbb mse aku kt sne kau jrng sgt jmpe aku.. aku ingt sme ak nk blik kl kau jmpe la ak kejap tp takkk !! takk bieee. knp knp ? dlu kau xcmni tau bieee. kaw sntiase ade mse utk akuu. skrng ni mcm2 alasan kau bg kat aku hmmm :'( smpahh sdihhh sgt bieeee .. smpai skrng aku ingt kat kau lg walaupun kite dah xcntct bieee xpela aku xkesa and aku hrp kau akn menjelaskan sesuatu apeyg dah jd kat kau smpai kau berubah cmtuh skli bieee . aku harap sngttt ! .. smpai skrng act aku msih sdihhhhhh ag .. aku cube tok buangkan perasaan tu tp xlehh bie , aku try enjoy n happy ng mmbe2 aku utk lpekan kaw, alhamdullilah dpt la krangkan skit kesedihan aku tuuu tp xckop ag bieee. hmm aku nak mnngis sgt2 skrng biee bile aku tlis psal kau niii .a ku rse ni last kowd ak ckp sal kau lepasni aku try lupekan kau terussss okeyyy ! k la aku xtahan dah tlis psal2 kau . aku sdih sgtt bie ak nak nges sgt2! aku xberdaya lg nk ckp sal kau. bnyk lagi act aku nk ckp tp xpela aku pendam je la kannn , kaw bkn phm ponn perasaan aku kannn ? hmm thanks sgt2 bie ade dlm hdup aku walaupun seketika,, thanks sbb bahgiakan aku walau utk seketikaaa kayy ? aku hargai sgt2 n aku syg kaw sgt2 ! k la bieee thanks for evrythngs and halalkan makan minum aku kayyy .. byebye my love :'(

Ni text yg kau penah bg kat aku and aku akn smpan smpai bile2

Syafiq :1, Kalau ade bende yg terbuku kat dlm hati tu xyah simpan2 .. btaw je .. kalau kau smpan akn jd benci or dendamm .. about relationship aku pon confused dowh haha ..sory coz i nver did this kind of relationship b4.. tp kan ape je yg kau nk dr aku , aku kan bg .. tok kaw jeee. 1st and last for the rest of my lifee..xkn ade kali kedua..klu ko bla pon aku xkn cri org lain. never ever,... fullstop

..2, ye .. aku janji .. ko je 1st and last . ily too.missed u oredi :0 cb la.. wat is this feeling... :'(

3, ok syg , klu aku ade wt salah yg aku sndiri xprasan aku minx maaf.. syumpah aku xde niat ponn...aku xnk break ng kaw coz series aku syg ko sgt ... trust me aku xkn pnah berubah .aku akn jd paranoid ble aku ade slah..sbb tu aku mkn ubat,, aku hope ko phm.aku siyes xnk break ng kauuu . i love u so much k.. maafkan aku ...

4, mmng aku sorng jela yg pertahankan hbgan nii, ko ckit pon xpk,..kalau ko ade orng len kau bgthu..kaw tau nk cr silap aku jee..serious aku xterpk kau sggup wt cmni .. ok sume slah aku..tp aku nak kau tahu semua andaian kau to sume salah.. aku just ade kau je.. tu pon ko msih xnmpak.then ko blame aku dh xsyg kat kau ..tc.. jgn nk enjoy je .. jgn lpe stdy math tok future kau. ape slh aku, aku minx maaf..

5, jgn nk pk bkn2. aku xperh berubah pon,, sme je cm dlu..i xtipu..u jgn wt keputusan sndiri.seriously ily :(

DAH LA BYK AG TEXT KAU YG KAU JNJY AND KAU CKP .. AKU PCYE JE TP .. APE YG KAW WT ADELAH KAU KECEWAKAN AKU JGK DOHH . PENAT DAH CMNI OH SERIOUS BIEEE .. HMMM K LAH TAHT ALL ... KBAI :'(

IMISSYOU SYAFIQ AZIZ :'(

Hidup dalam kesunyian :'(

Loneliness ? yupp aku dlm kesunyian skrng , evrydays im woke up from my bed hoping that someone will cheer up my day, day by day im hoping fer the time coming right to me but it seem like no one understand me ,be here for me and accompany me , its sad right ? yeah that what I am but i still keep on waiting and looking fer someone that can be here for me when i needed but hmmm :'( its okeyy helmi , bnyakanlah bersbr .. Terkadang aku nak sngt jd cm kowng ,semuanye happy2 je ng psangan msing2 tp aku ? aku sorang2 je , tak de spe pon temani hidup aku , jd someone special dlm idup aku .. aku bukan nk menagih smpati ke ape tp aku cume nk ade seseorng yg akn menceriakan hdup aku yg kian hari kian suram .. aku tahu aku ade mmbe2 baik aku yang ade untuk sentiase menemani aku , berkongsi suka duka bersame tp dowang skrg pun mcm mkin menjauhkan diri je dr aku , knp ? knp ? aku pon xtahu. law aku ade silap ke ape aku minx maaf , aku rase aku dah wat yg terbaek spnjang persahabatan kita, aku dah jage hati kowg but if msih lg ade kekurangan dlm diri aku xpe la mngkin silap aku kan n biaselah aku pon manusie biase cm kowng terkadang ade juga slah silap kan..im trying to be the best fer u my bestie(Dean,melo,shasha,Afy,Afiz,Ferra,Soll,Aben,Sara) tapi bg aku its not enough . i still want to be happy at all with someone that i love most .. hmm aku tamakkan ? xpela tu jalan hidup aku .. aku xleh happy sgt without someone yg boleh aku sayangi .. hari2 aku berdoa semoga tuhan sntiase mmberkati hidup aku seharian and jdikan hari aku better than before.. Aku tahu ak xlayak nk bahagia sbb aku bkn lah baik sgt tp salah ke ? ape kekurangan aku ? insyaAllah aku perbaiki and aku nak sgt buat semua orng happy bila bersame ng aku .. tp sapelah aku kan? aku xperfect cam kowng,tak kaya cm kowng , xencem cm kowng tp ape yg aku ade adalah menjadi diri aku sendiri , bg aku tu dah ckup utk buat aku happy kan kowng tp kalau itu belum lg ckup bg kowng xpelah aku try k jd yg terbaek ! hmmm .. aku dah penat dah sunyi2 dan sorng2 je dlm idup aku .. smpai bile oh , smpai bile ?? hmm xpela aku cube bersbr and tnggu for the right time coming toward me . hm .. kadang2 rase nak nanges je oh tp nk nages sgt pon xleh jgk kan, xdpt ape pon tp aku nak nanges jgkkkk , xkireee !! uwaaaa :'( dah la smpai sini jelah mls nk taip bnyak2 nnt bertmbah sedih ohhh, bknnye ade orng nk kesa pon kan kan ? xpela , biarkan aku dengan hdup aku , biarkan kesedihan tu terubat sndiri ... k la chiow .. :'(

mood : LONELINESS :'(

Cinta ini membunuhku :'(

Hmm tired of hurting my self :'( but aku perlukan cinta , semua orng perlukan cinta yg dapat mnyempurnakan diri mereka dan bole menjadi teman berkongsi segale suka duka and kasih sayang selain drpd teman2 . Terkadang aku teringin sgt nk bhagia , gembire , suka ria , gelak tawa bersame yg tersayang tp mngkin belum smpai mse nye lg .. aku akui aku jeles gile tngok mmbe2 aku sume happy je ngn downg nye gf/bf .. Setiap kali aku nk bahagia je ng orng yg aku syg mest ade halangan cubaan dan dugaan yg xputus2 menguji ketabahan hati aku.. aku xsekuat sperti sesetngah orng tabah dan bersabar melalui sgle cubaan dan dugaan ni... aku insan yg lemah . aku sllu gagal dalam bercinta tp bg aku sume tu br permulaan dlm idup aku. byk lg aku perlu tahu, perlu pelajari .. pengalaman yg aku lalui semua tu mengajar aku erti Cinta yg sebenar! Kowang xakan paham ng aku kenape aku jd mcm skrng ni .. knp aku xpkir sgt gurl .. knp aku hnye trime lelaki je dlm idup aku.. ni semua sbb aku kecewa ng gurl yg xpernah menghargai aku, aku rse belum smpai lg mase utk aku terime gurl dlm idup aku lg... enough is enough . aku xnk lg kecewa ng gurl .. xpela ape pon kowng nk ckp sal aku, ckp lah , aku adalah aku and aku ada target dlm idup aku so jgn nk judge aku jeee . Aku tahu bile aku suke laki semua orng xleh trime, semua nk hina , well aku phmm tu sume tp cube kowng letakkan diri kowng kt tmpt aku... kau nk ke jd cm aku ? kau mintak ke sume ni ? .. ye aku tahu aku boleh perbaiki diri aku and muhasabah diri aku dr jd cmni , tp aku xkuat mcm kowng . aku belum lg mmpu utk berubah... aku nak enjoy dgn khidupan aku skrng .. so kalau kowng nk judge aku suke hati kowng lah ye, aku happy je ng idup aku skrng , xpela hak masing2. yg tegur aku n nasihat ak ng cre baik tu THANKS lah .. yg tegur cre slah tu , WEH KAU CERMIN DIRI KAU DLU K ! and aku xkesa ponn kau nk ckp ape. skit pun aku xamek kesa. haha , dah la ak mlas nk merepek bnyak2 aku xde idea sngt, sje je nk try2 wt blog tntg diri aku sbnanye , hihhiihi dah la smpai sni jelah k byebye thanks all readers loveyouuuu muah muah <3 hahahaha